Tuesday, October 07, 2008 @ 11:53 PM

I'm super afraid of schooling now. Afraid of poor GPA, irritating modules which I don't even have any interest in and those cannot be trusted friends.

I can't give up studying now because I want myself to at least own a diploma. I don't give myself high hopes in going into uni because of my super freaking sucky GPA, anyway, I don't think any local uni offers my course. I know that would disappoint my parents but you know, I'm disappointed in myself too.

And I hate to have friends who cannot be trusted (I'm refering to my poly friends). They tend to say that they haven't studied for the upcoming examinations but I believed that they were actually staying at home and mug-ed like bookworms when they self-claimed that they wanted to go home and have a good afternoon nap.

Just before the paper starts, they tend to say that they had already forgotten everything that they've studied and were super scared. But when someone asked a question, Oh, she answered like everything is in her self-claimed Pea Brain.

You see, fake or not?

I know I'm only Year 1 and I started to complain already. Actually I only had that kind of fear when I browsed through the modules which had to be completed upon each semester and it's freaking me out. I know my course can sound quite fun but when I really looked into the job as a Planner, it's wasn't as simple as I thought.

But what can I doooooooooooo? I can't possibly quit my course and switch to another course, it would be a total waste of time. Plus it was my dream to have a job with no dead office work.

Just live with it then, perhaps next semester would be better. *I hope so :/